满足感。。。

什么是满足感？你是否有满足过你曾经做过的事情吗？其实前几天，我的朋友问我一道问题。

“当你与朋友玩或做一样东西时，你有没有想过要赢他们的感觉呢？“我那时回答他，赢不赢不重要，最重要是在这个过程中，你有没有enjoy过，有没有满足过，这才是最重要。

说到满足感，每个人都有不同的满足感，比如说，有些人只要能买到他们所要的东西，那就有满足感了。这些事情呢，就要看个人了。

对我来说呢，只要我的付出，能让人有满足感或开心的话，那我就有满足感了。就好像昨天我做的事情呢，就真的满足其他人，也满足我自己。。。

昨天一大早七点就要醒来了，已经答应chek beng哥去当义工，帮帮他。再加上我想在家也没什么东西做嘛，就过来帮帮他。到了那儿，chek beng哥便带我及其他人去目的地----那就是Sarah Senior Activity Centre。简称来说，是安老院。



那个负责人先告诉我们一些关于他们这间安老院的详情，过后我们便拿了几样需要的东西，便开始动工。这次我们的义工是打扫及洗好地上，做个大扫除就是了。于是我们便开始动工了。







你们看看第一张的照片。那个地上是不是很肮脏呢？但是经过我们努力的清洗后。。。





果然，那个负责人和老人家都很开心。我们那时候也是很开心。这也许是我所谓的满足感吧！只要别人开心，那我的付出是值得的。也许我的朋友说，“为什么你不要在这里找part-time工作，反而去做义工呢，义工做了赚不了钱的。。。“

对我来说，part-time工作虽然能赚一些钱，拿来当日常中的需要。但是，比起这份义工，我做得更开心，更享受。钱任何时候都能赚的，只是这份具有义意的工作，更能让别人开心，自己也更开心，具有满足感。这何乐而不为呢？

JB TRIP

嗨...paiseh，我很久没有放最新的文章了。也不能怪我啦，我实在很忙了，现在只能赶紧“手”步，写出最新的文章。在这里只能说一声，对不起，paiseh。

这篇文章其实是发生一个星期前了，只是我太忙了，现在只能这样做，赶快pose出来。

在上个星期六与日，我校的佛学会带我们去JB庆祝Kathina Day。其实，我不是很了解什么是Kathina Day。我跟随他们去是因为我不想这两天都呆在家，面对着四面墙和一直玩电脑，看着两位“陌生人”。嗨...这样的日子我不想这样的度过...所以就跟随他们去见识见识一下。

过了那由塞由麻烦的新加坡与JB的kastam，师兄就带我们先去City Square走走看看一下，也吃些东西。听说City Square在JB是数一数二的有名逛物广场，去了之后，果然名不虚传。

之后，我们便到我们所要去的地方...那个地方好像叫什么什么Santi Forest什么什么。该死的，记性真不好，记不起那个名字了，但是我知道那个地方是在森林里，是很偏僻的地方。师兄还说，那里环境清静，最适合进行任何修行的地方。

关键的不是这里，而是隔天的Kathina Day庆祝仪式。当天果然是很多人，听说人数达到大约超过百多人。哇，果然是很大的庆祝仪式，以信徒们供给师父的供品数量，就好多好多好多...真的很难形容...还好我还拍了起来，让我们一起分享分享。





是不是很多呢？我们还要帮他们分类，那时真的很辛苦，但是这些对我来说，是一件很值得的事情。毕竟，我从来都没有看过那么大的场面。虽然那儿的仪式我曾经看过，也见识过，但是就没有见识过那么大的场面。对我来说，这是一个很好的经验，让我们见识到我们从来都没有预料到的事情或场面。我觉得我可以将这件事情告诉明宝，也可以找个时间和其他居士林的人一起去那边也是个不错的建议嘛。哈哈哈...

下面的照片是我校的佛学会的大合照。那时候，我们果然玩得很开心。希望下次还有机会的话我们还能一起出来搞活动，联络一下感情也是不错嘛。哈哈哈。

放手, 放開所有...

你们有没有听过“爱不疚-林峰“这首歌吗？如果没有听过的，那你们一定要去听听看咯。是一首不错的歌曲咯。

这首歌曲的内容是关于一个男人一直暗恋一个女人，但是为了她的幸福和将来，他愿意这样的，默默地暗恋她，只要她幸福快乐，他愿意这样做。听起来是不是很感动呢？我觉得是啦，你们去听一听那就知道了。

放手 放開所有 彼此更自由
放手 其實我絕非愛得不夠
放手 豁出所有 還有這個好友
已經 已經足夠

尤其是上面这一段,我听了,都差点留了眼泪咯.听了这一段,我觉得它正在劝告我,叫我放手.我觉得是时侯我该放手,放下.对于在感情方面最注重的我来说,应该是放不下吧.已经喜欢她大约一年了吧.算一算,还蛮久的.想当时,应该是去年七八月份的时候吧.那时候,就在我中学学校图书馆管理团所举办的太平一日游才真正知道她叫什么名.其实在那时候,我form的图书馆管理员都没有采我,感觉就被他们忽略了,所以那天我并不是很高兴,很伤心.也就那时候,她突然出现在我面前，问我：“你能帮我拍个照吗？”那时候我都没东西做嘛,就好人做到底,帮一帮她拍照吧.那时候跟她相处还蛮好的,心情就慢慢的好了很多,知道了很多关于她的事情.

在那天之后,由于要大考了,我就每两三天都到图书馆去温习书,至图书馆停止服务,关门为止.巧合的是,每次关门都是她一个人关门,满可怜的,所以我就陪她一起聊天,一起关门,一起回家.那时候,我觉得我们瞒谈得来的.也很巧合的是,她也是居士林中学生活营的工委呢.我一直都觉得我们很有缘分,可以这样的一起碰面,蛮好的.就这样我们就一直碰面.直到有一天,居士林那天有一日营及大扫除,我和她都一起做事,所以都没有机会聊天.中午休息时,我想跟她聊天,所以便去找她,但是找了找,还是找不到她.那时候,不知不觉地,我开始担心了她.找了找,找了再找,原来她躲在楼上没人用的佛学图书馆.看见她躲在一旁睡觉.去问问她,原来她生病了,有一点发烧.她说她休息一下,就可以了.但是,为了她的安全,我就坐在一旁看着她.看着看着,才发现到她其实满好看的,满可爱的,有一种想要照顾她,保护她的感觉,心跳越跳越快.看着看着,我越来越靠近她了.就在那时候,她醒了,也发现我越来越靠近她,可能害羞吧,她连忙站起来,跑掉了.那时我整个人呆着了,发现到,原来我已经有一点喜欢上她的感觉了.......

之后，居士林中学生活营已经开始了，在这几天生活营里的日子，我和她都合作愉快，我也在这生活营里更加确定我真的真的喜欢上她了。我便下定决心去追求她。通过sms，我们俩由不是很认识的，只是聊得来的两人变成了朋友。虽然我们还没到了成为好朋友，但是每次我sms“烦“她时，她都愿意与我sms，关系也是蛮好的。这样一来关系就维持到现在。。。

可是，这样一来，我对她的爱意已经越来越深了，甚至我在新加坡读书的日子里，我都无时无刻都想念她。就因为如此，我决定在hari raya的几天日子里向她告白。可能是时机不对几种种因素吧，我失败了。

”其实我也喜欢你啊！哈哈...可是我们现在这样的关系很好啊..."

这是她给我的答覆.伤心?一定有的,觉得心很痛,留不出眼泪来.可能我喜欢她很深吧!那晚睡不好.那晚,也有一个我不认识的人来sms我,说我选错时机了,又说他也喜欢她,要跟我公平竞争.那时候我已经很伤心了,也很累了,也想如果真的要竞争的话,我一定会落败的.在想想如果那个人真的喜欢她的话,就让他吧,只要她开心就好了.我就以这样的答案sms回那个人.原来,那个人又sms回我,说他其实他是她的好朋友,是她要他去sms我想test我是不是真的喜欢她.是不是听起来怪怪的呢?虽然到了现在,这件事情已经过了两个星期了,但是我还是放不下她,真的真的放不下她.虽然那个人说我还有机会的,但是我觉得这句话只是那个人说罢了,我想要知道她心里到底是不是也这样说呢?可能那个人要安慰我才这样说的吧.再加上她都没有暗示或跟我这样说,我觉得不可能吧,可能在她的心目中,我只是她的朋友,或是说得好听一点,是她的好朋友吧,只是我一相情愿而已,她是不可能接受我的.

说是这样说,我还是想要再尝试多一次,说不定我成功嘛.但也有可能我想太多了,这不可能发生的.以她的性格,不可能.所以也是时候我彻彻底底的放手,放开所有.可能这需要很长的时间吧,而且我甚至都忘不了她.就这几天在这里,我就开始想念她了.有时我真的很没用,说是要放下这一切,可是到现在还是放不开.这样下去也不是个好办法,只好多听这首歌吧,可能真的听多了,我还能放手呱.写着写着,又想起她了.我是不是很没用呢?说是容易,做的确很难,真的真的很难...

只要她能过得开心,那我就心满意足了...希望她大考能过关啦...真的真的还是喜欢她...

START OF SEMESTER 2 IN SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC

New semester oledi start lo........yahoo......old semester oledi pass away 7 weeek ago.Now this semester is the 2nd semester of Singapore Polytechnic lo.wat happen during my last time semester,no matter happy or not,it is pass away oledi.now during the time in 2nd semester,i need 2 get a new lifestyle,new shoes,new shirt,new pants(actually is the same as the last time one) n get more new friend too.this time semester i think got more module than the semester before.hope that i can handle all the module la.hahaha.

New semester,sure got new matters happen la.this time the lecture i feel that r more better than the before one,although stil got someone i oso hate them too.for example,"if u dunno anything,pls go 2 search from blackboard".that the words that i hate the most.hahaha.got some lecture more pretty,more funny while other stil the same.cant change their attitude one.hahaha.dun talk a lot about my lecture,abo if they noe it,i sure be kill one.hahaha.especially the gem module,it is really fun during the lesson.n finally i can build my solar mini car with my partner.yeah,my 1st solar mini car can be born out lo.hahaha.

wat about my classmates?aiya,sure the same la.sometime serious during the lessons,sometime the situation suddenly become high,sometime they oso very funny 2.not bad.that gud.that is wat ppl say as enjoy poly life.hahaha.all of them dun change,stil the same.hahaha.dukka,hugo buss,porn king,Kimi Raikonnen,eugine n others stil very funny although it is oledi 7 week we dun meet each others.gud for me n oso all the classmates too.especially that Wilson Lai,oways disturb me nya n he feel very syok if he call me "noob mario".hahaha.but it is really fun 2gether with him.hahaha.

lifestyle?sure got change la.become new version lo.hahaha.1stly,time playing game cut a lot lo.as i oledi promise myself,my parent,n oso somebody 2 reduce the time 2 play game.i think it is gud oso la as we all noe that play game can be addicted.so i think i need 2 change my attitude on this matter.2 become a real guy n man.hahaha.2ndly,spend more time on my study.my parents oledi scold me during the school vacation almost 48 hours lo.terrible.need 2 spend more time on my study lo.abo i really waste my money,my energy n my time during the days at here.3rdly,do the things that i like without consider about ppl feeling.this is because before that i too consider their feeling n make myself not even happy at here.so,from this new semester,i sure do the things that i like as long as the way i do is correct then ok liao.

1 week in this new semester oso very fun too.n it is more fun than the semester before.hope that it can be continue.i oso need 2 improve myself too.work hard work hard.add oil add oil.

HOLIDAY PART 3(THE END)

It is the last day I at here.it seem that me oledi spend 7 week at here n finally,this holiday come 2 the end.feeling?happy?sad?i oso dunno.but most probably is sad cover all the happy.this time holiday.it come so fast n it end so fast.it is the truth that time is unlimited.it wont stop n wait u.it juz can pass n pass n pass away only.

Although the time I at here pass very very fast n is the time I go back 2 the place where I study,but I think I oso got use the time that limited at here,2 do the thing that I should do.1st ,is the time that I spend with my family.although at here I almost everyday scold by my mom bcos of playing 2 much computer game,but I think it back,oso fun 2.as I noe that it oledi long time she didn’t scold me since I study at there.before that she tell me that this time holiday I better find a part-time job work at there,no need back here la n she bla bla bla again.however I noe that in her heart she stil hope that I will come back, bcos I noe that she miss me a lot during I study there.so during the time I at here,being scold by her oso gud la,at least she can’t scold me again after I go back there n she definite wil miss me again.hahaha.n other member of the family oso help me a lot during the time at here.my big bro pick me go kia kia around the penang n butterworth state.i think he maybe will sad when I go back there.bcos he cant use my laptop again.hahaha.while on the other side,my little bro dun seem 2 help me a lot la,juz he oways like 2 find me sharing his fun 2gether.n my father really teach me a lot of thing during I at here.i really need 2 thank him of being “wake up” my mind since the time I at here n I realize on wat important come 1st among all the things.n really,he really teach me a lot about wat should I do now in this period of time n wat should I do for my future oso.

N the time I at here I oso find all my friend no matter at café,shopping center,school,n even at ju shi lin.the time during we spend 2gether r really very fun n happy n I never got so happy like that.at here,I really need 2 thank them as they oways support me on the way till now.n some of them who r really help me a lot during this period.i really really thank them.maybe I wil be alone n bored at here if they dun spend the time with me.at here I oso wish them 2 hav a gud future for them n tell them bb til December I only can find them.n that time I m sure we can enjoy the time that we 2gether no matter where n when.next time we go out la,as long as we got the time.

N finally oso my “5 mission” at here oledi finish.all the “5 mission” I finished r difficult but I oso solve it finally.the result of that “5 mission” maybe not so gud n I oso not so happy about it,but I stil can accept it la.juz got a lit bit regret la.but nvm la,it is oledi pass lo.now the time is study hard n work hard n improve myself again for the next time.haiz.

The conclusion on this time holiday,I think that I have grow up a lot 2 become better n better person in life.it is the truth that I learn a lot,having a lot of fun 2gether with friends n sad a lot 2.before that my mind dun so be rational enough on any matter,but now I oledi think a lot n be rational on any matter 2.n I oso need 2 improve again n again 2 be a 100% perfect guy.this time go back there,I need 2 start a new life in my semester 2.hope 2 get a gud n perfect n fun life in my semester 2.BB all my friend n BB penang.SINGAPORE,I M COMING BACK AGAIN.U ALL WAIT ME THERE.

HOLIDAY PART 2

It is oledi 4 week I at here...me stil normal la,stil the same,no change.oso stil the most handsome man in whole penang n oways so talkative n crazy la.hahaha.i noe a lot of ppl c these sentences sure will be “cold” n “keep quiet” for a while.hahaha.this is my style la,so pls forgive me la.hahaha.

Hahaha.this week I spend the most “meaningful” in this holiday...that is all my friend r back for holiday from their study place n work.2 is work part-time at Singapore before they go back here n 1 is study at ktar kl before back here.especially this person that study at ktar kl one is...can say is my “best friend” that I meet,n oso can say is my “enermy” that I meet.sure u all wanna noe who is him la...but I dun wan say out la...abo he will kill me de if I rite his thing on my blog...as I noe that all of u juz noe about his story then enough liao la,I think that person’s name r not important...moreover,I think that dun wan let ppl noe him 2 much better la...bcos if u noe him more,u will being kill by him more.hahahahaha.juz kidding la.

This person who study at ktar kl one ho...I meet him since we study at primary sch.although until now we not hav been study in the same class before,juz at tuition only.until now I baru think that every problem,sadness n happiness I oso share with him 2gether,include my secret la.n he is a nice guy n buddy 2,as almost ur style n behaviour oso the same leh...hahaha.n when he tell me that he come back,I really very surprise n happy la...as it is about half year since we dun meet 2gether.so this 4th week Monday I spend a day 2 go out with him la.he stil the same la,no change,juz I feel that he oledi grow bigger liao,personal thinking become more wisely than before liao...hahaha.we go 2 jusco both of us by sitting bus.we juz chat a lot of thing la,my life n story at my study place n oso his life n story at his study place 2.hahaha,n it is very funny that we can talk n chat from afternoon till night leh.hahaha.from this can prove that my friend relationship with him r not bad la.hahaha.however,I juz hav a lit bit regret that he not go study the same place as me la.if he go study the same place as me,I m sure almost all the Singapore we oledi go explore n travel all the place n this will bring a lot of happiness memory in my life.hahahaha.n I m here wish him hav a bright day in the future n can success in everything that he did,including his relationship with his girl that he like.hahaha.

N another 2 guy leh ho,oso my friend 2.n bcos they wan 2 work as part time at there,so they juz back here recently.n we oso go 2 jusco 2gether with another 2 guy,juz meet n spend time chat 2gether with them la.on that day,every ppl got different feeling during the time we spend at jusco la.that day is the 5th time I go jusco since it start operate til now so on that day I juz become their “tourism leader” la,juz bring them walk around la.my feeling is happy la as I like go out 2gether with friend n my life concept is like that-“一起出去的时候，最重要的是大家一起happy”.n more surprising thing is I accidentally meet a gal at one of the clock shop.that gal r my friend during my ns trip n after I got serious accident at there n stay at hospital,then we dun hav meet each after afterward n I can meet her at there really very suprising me.so on that day I m very happy at the moment we go 2 jusco 2gether la.n the 2 guy that juz come back from Singapore one leh,all along the way n the time we at jusco,he juz play his “wat wat cube” la.aiya,oledi forgot wat that thing call liao.n from his face,I juz c he happy during that time he buy a few set of “wat wat cube” la.hahaha.another one leh,juz spend his whole day play his favourite game-“initial-d” n “wat wat hai wan” lo.he can say that he is very pro when he play this game la n he beat me all along the way he play with me 2day.but I oso not bad mah,juz he lucky n “heng” nya la on that day as I got put a lit bit of “water” that day.hahahahaha.however,when he play with other guy,he lose til “cham cham”.hahahahaha.when he c this,he sure kill me one.hahahaha.paiseh la.as kj say one,shoot ppl oso one type of how 2 make urself happy mah.hahahaha.then another 2 guy that follow us go jusco one leh?oh,one leh I c him oso happy la 2gether with us n another one leh,I no need say liao la.he oledi rite about it on his blog liao la n he oso describe me very well 2.hahaha.u all can go c his blog de.hahaha.juz he maybe cant accept it if I m such the guy as he think.hahahaha.maybe he need a lit bit open-minded la if I m such that guy.hahaha.juz kidding nya la.hope he dun angry if I rite these.hahaha.

oledi more than 4 week here lo...stil got mission need 2 complete n finish it...n now only till less than 4 week time...dunno i can complete it or not...so now i need 2 add oil lo...haiz,talk til here,my result oledi out lo...but very very very bad lo...1 b n 1 c+ lo...very very bad...so sad la...bcos before than dun prepare my exam well la...so i now regret...although i oledi expert that my result wil be like that...but i oso feel very regret leh...til my mom oso scold me...now i feel very sad n very regret...feel that i let them dissapointed with my result...so from now i need 2 change myself n my daily timetable...n i promise myself cant let them dissapointed again.maybe after i go back liao i will start my "crazy study lifestyle" liao.so manybe my friend will think i start crazy liao.but for my parent n my future,maybe i need 2 start "crazy" liao.hahaha.so now juz can hope that i can finish my mission n my result can be better next semester.haiz.fan fan fan.

HOLIDAY PART 1

it been a long time liao....about 7 week holiday this time n the only time i m at penang.oledi almost 3 week holiday pass away.1st week of holiday,me go almost all the place in penang.shopping,travelling,playing n eating 2,especially the food that i almost miss them everyday during my study at singapore.really very enjoy n fun during that week.i really happy a lot than before at there.i can do my thing that i like than before,without anyone "disturb" me.i oso very fun at than time,although that time i alone all way for that week.but oso not bad 2 la,that time during i spend my time with my family,i finally noe that family love r very important for me.n they r only the ppl who care for me along the way that i not happy at there although they oways scold me that time.especially my best "friend"-my bro.he really help,care n spend time enjoy my happiness with me during that week.i really really very thank him.let me not need 2 be so lonely during that week.n at that moment,i oledi make decision that no matter how busy i m,if got sch holiday again,i sure will go back here,visit them n oso improve again my family relationship.i noe that this time holiday i can earn some money by doing part time job n bcos of this,many ppl say me xui ye zhai,me very rich la or other things la,but...family relationship oways be the most in my heart n i will not juz let it put aside.i will try my best 2 spend the time 2gether with my family during this time holiday.beside that,that week oso i go 2 penang with my family beside find eat,me oso follow my little bro go learn mind reading.although i not learn all the things,juz follow 2 listen wat the teacher say nya,but i feel that i learn new thing on how 2 study n prepare my exam well n i hope i can use it for my study 2.by using this method,i oso hope that it can help me relax n no need feel stress during my study period.

2nd week of holiday,me busy go 2 take car course.a lot of ppl say that me study at singapore for almost 8-9 year,n the transportation there so gud,no need 2 take car course la.however,i think that i go 2 take it better.1st,if during holiday i need go out,i can drive car mah,no need let my parent pick me go 2 the places that i wanna go.2nd,i need 2 wait till after 8-9 year finish my study then baru go take the course.n since during the holiday i oso nth do mah,so i mah go take the course lo.walao yerh,that week i really very gai lo.not only almost everyday need wake up early go learn car,but oso need 2 study the undang n peraturan jalanraya n pass that exam baru can take car course leh.but luckily,i very clever one.that exam........easy easy nya la.me close eye oso can pass.hahaha.maybe bcos of this reason,then i oso thought learn how 2 drive car oso easy easy nya la,juz like play initial-d game like that nya mah.but finally,on that day i go learn car,baru noe drive car very tough lo.maybe i very noob,stupid or wat la,that day no matter i train how many time,i oso drive the car very badly lo.till the lecturer oso say that me play the initial-d game 2 much liao,now learn drive car oso feel like play play now.haiz,me december dunno how 2 pass my car exam leh.haiz,juz can say me think things do simple liao.nvm la,juz next time i try my best 2 do it la.so now i hope that everyone especially who c this blog,pls pls pls,support me.support me that i can pass this car exam at december soon.tq.n,if i pass that exam,i sure will belanja the ppl who support me along the way 2 hav a eat 2.hahaha.

however,this 3rd week of holiday,i juz only stay at home play game,eat,slp,watch tv only.i nearly wanna become "no life" person lo.but i sure noe that got someone sure "no life" than me during this time holiday.hehehe.not gud one say ppl bad thing.i juz spend this week think,think,think n think again y i feel happier at here than at there.is it i dun like that place?or i think 2 much?or my heart stil at here?or i juz 2 bored at there?or...or...or...i think it till think "or or or" nya la.y i will think like that?bcos i feel that i become not the same person at here when i go study at there.at here,everything that i face,i juz smile it,then let it pass.however at there,everything that i face,i feel very disturbing,feel very "fan fan fan".i think till now oso dunno y i will become like that.is it my personality oledi change liao?or i think 2 much liao?or i oledi become mature liao?or..or..or....u c,me "or or or" again.haiz,dunno la.haiz.feel very fan when think it.maybe i think 2 much liao la.juz say say it nya la.i m sure later i will think this question again de.hahaha.

this time holiday,not only juz enjoy it,but oso need 2 finish my 5 mission here.all mission r very difficult 2 solve it lo.but if hav the heart,sure will finish it de.however,almost 3 week at here liao,i juz finish 1st mission nya,2nd n 3rd mission oso in process.4th mission i think next whole week time finish it.but the laz one,i feel very very difficult lo.i think i no need say detail all the mission la,bcos i think u all can guess it de la n i oso got say 2 u all before one,sure u all stil remember de la.especially the laz one,i think i wanna finish it oso cant.dunno me dun hav confidence or wat,i feel it hardly 2 success it,the conclusion juz 2 only,is me become happy,or me become sad.really,i wanna noe that how that person feel when that person having time 2gether with me.haiz,stil need time 2 solve it.hope that i can solve all this mission n my question during this holiday.haiz,stil need 2 "fan" for a very long time.